Fiction.

It was the end of January in oh-seven, and the cold was bitter. Still, I waited for him on the sidewalk in front of my former best friend's house. I was scared, excited, and nauseous all at the same time. Never had I been alone with him, never had I given it much thought. Here I was though, at two in the morning, waiting for him. He walked in the blistering cold for me, but it was only a few blocks. I seen him making his way towards me, in short, slow strides. I wished he would walk faster. He was only ten feet away from me, I could see his face in the street light. His smile was returned by an even larger one, upon my face. We didn't have to say anything, we both knew what we were waiting for. As soon as I was in reach, he put his arms around me, and brought his lips slowly to mine. He planted a hundred soft pecks, or at least thats how many it felt like. It was cute, more subtle than I expected from him. He grabbed my hand and we started to take a walk down the street. After a few exchanged words, he turned me towards him once more. This time, his kiss wasn't as subtle. It seemed as though he were hungry for me, craving this moment, I returned passion. Why had I waited so long for this? I pushed him away for over a year, claiming to only want to be friends, who was I kidding? This is what I wanted, what I always wanted. It seemed as though years had flown by, and we pulled apart, only to embrace in a hug. He lifted my chin to his face, "I've always wanted you." That was all he said, and it was enough. He gave my lips one last peck, took my hand in his, and we continued our walk in the night...

Just thought I would allow you guys into my head for once. Sounds made up, right? It's not. One of my more favorable memories of this guy that I never should have let go of. He will be mine again though, you can all bet on that. Anyway, I work tomorrow at three. Dree and I are going to Visalia before I work, to have a picnic, YAY! So yeah, byeeee!

I Luv Your Boy.

I want him back. That's all I have to say. I've wanted him since before I was friends with you, so I don't care about sparing your feelings anymore. He will be mine, whether your heart gets crushed in the process or not. I'm tired of pretending I don't know what I want, because it has always been him. Since the first day he and I locked eyes, I knew it meant something. From now on, my goal is to get him back. Regardless of what stands in my way, I will prevail, I always do.

Moving on. Sunday was my graduation party. It was dope. I had a Spider-Man cake, be jealous suckas! Steven and Mario came over for a bit, but they were lame and quiet. I felt like a fatass because them, plus Dree and Matt, were in my room chilling with me, and I was the only one eating cake and ice cream! Blah! It was cool though. I made some monies! Which I always love, I mean, enjoy. Must not be greedy here, one of those seven deadly sins. Eh, but so is lust, screw 'em all! Haha!

Tomorrow, Dree and I are supposed to hit up the theatre for a movie, ohhhh yeah. I love having days off work. Hit me up if you want peoples! I'm on Yahoo!

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You can ask for my number there if you want, and maybe we could chill sometime. Yee! Peace out!

Graduation.

Now, I am officially a graduate of 2008! Yay me! I didn't cry at graduation though, suprisingly. Usually I'm more of the emotional one, always teary eyed, but this week has changed me slightly. It may seem weird, but enough has happened in the past week to make me feel like I've become a stronger person. My heart is no longer worn on my sleeve, and I'm proud of myself. Am I becoming a different person? Maybe. A more stable person though, that's for sure.

Sober Grad, I had a blast. It started off extremely boring, I'm not going to lie. I started hanging out with Dustin though, which is pretty awkward. We've always had the on again off again type of friendship, and the last friendship seemed like it would be the last. We seen past our differences though, and maybe just for the night. We played basketball [[it was more like me just getting balls and him shooting hoops]], hung out and talked, and played in the bounce arena thing. It was overall, a really cute night. I guess I really missed him, even though there were times I wanted to tear his head off before.

So high school is really over for me. Time to move on to bigger and better things. I don't know where life will take me, or who will find themselves in my path along the way, but I'm excited. We'll see how many of my friends stay in touch, I know I'll miss every single one of them. I'm out.

Twilight.

So I just watched the trailer for the Twilight movie [[Dec. 12]], and I'm excited! I actually thought that Robert Pattinson [[Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire]] was a horrible choice for Edward, I would have preferred Steven Strait, but after watching the trailer, Robert is pretty sexy. By the way, Kellen Lutz, he's playing Emmett, WOW! He is what I call, um, I actually have no words to describe how good looking he is. Anyway, not much to say about myself today. Lost one softball game, won the next. We are now in a three-way tie for first! Yay Queens! Well, enjoy the Twilight trailer. Peace!

GradNite!

It was freaken awesome! Okay so we left at five and got in around eleven-thirty, and all the rides were closed. I was like "Wtf bitches? Open the rides!" Nah, but oh em gee dude! Space Mountain was packed and our group [[of about 18-20 people]] totally cut everyone to get to the front. I had a blast, but then we waited like an hour for Indiana Jones. Then Krystal, Becca and I got hungry so we went to eat. We chilled and walked through shops. Went and got on Haunted Mansion. Looked for the Gold Rush ride, and got lost. Met up with Ashlie. Went on the Gold Rush ride. Walked around. Krystal and I took off alone. We got on Pirates of the Caribbean. Went shopping, and went back to the bus.

I didn't get tired the whole time we were there, I was totally hyped up on Java Monster. I had two cans, which is four servings, and I haven't had a real crash yet. I was in and out of sleep on Albert, it was not that comfortable, I'm not going to lie. Then my jeans started cutting off my blood circulation, and I wanted to change into my shorts. I was not going to change in that tiny bathroom because:
1. It is so small and the bus was shaking so bad, I probably would have fell into the toilet, and
2. My jeans were soooo extremely tight that I was going to need some help out.
So I'm sitting there under Henry's XXL polo shirt, and unbottoning/unzipping, and I was stuck! I was like, "Henry, pull off my pants for me." Then he helped me out of my pants, Ha! ;]

We got back to the high school like ten minutes before lunch, and I came home, and I'm still home, and I'm bored. Face-off tonight, most likely, we'll see.

I LOVE HANADI!

The end.

Softball.

I had so much fun at my games today! We totally rocked on the first team we played, but got slaughtered by the second. It's okay because we're 6-2 right now, which is good. I pulled a muscle in my left thigh, it hurt so bad I cried and got pulled out that inning, but I didn't care because I went back out there and played like a champ. Yay me! After the games Dree and I went to Starbucks, yummy. Then we went to Wal-Mart because she needed diapers for her nephew, but they didn't have his size. [[Good job Neeko.. haha!]] Then I went to Brandon's to discuss my car, then I went home. Now I'm here. Tired. Goodnight.

I LOVE HANADI! <3

Beat Down.

I'm currently passing both my classes, I should be graduating. GradNite is on Thursday and I'm excited, Disneyland is so dope! I really have nothing to say tonight. I'm talking to Hanadi on messenger and I've missed her so much, I'm just happy right now. Bye!

Idk.

Honestly, what the heck dude? I woke up all late today, and okay I freaken got bit by something on my EYELID and it looks puffy on the corner. Not trippin' though. I have a softball game tonight at eight, hopefully we win, I'm pretty excited. I'll most likely head out to the carnival afterwards. Yee. I've been craving some funnel cake for some reason. Nothing sounds better than a deep fried doughnut right now, haha! Um, so this morning my dad took my car to get an alarm, finally. So kudos to my dad for taking it in for me while I was knocked out. Also kudos to myself for actually saving money to do that, as well as putting in new back lights and my front corner lights. I need new headlights though, the corner lights look too new for them, blah. Time to start putting money away on the side again. Anyway, there are like nine actual school days left for me, it's freaken crazy. I'm so happy I'm going to graduate. I can't believe how hard this last semester was for me, I should have just listened from the beginning. For those of you that don't know, I was failing english and government for a few months, it sucked! I had to work my ass off this past month to bring my grades up to passing. I made it hard for myself by slacking off in the beginning, but you know what? I still made it baby! I'm really anxious for GradNite, it's going to be insane. Well I'm off to make some brownies, I've been craving them since I got up. [[I also need to put more ice on my stupid puffy eyelid.]] Peace out nukkas.

Today Sucks.

I'm sad because Neeko is currently upset with me. *Edit: Neeko is no longer of ANY importance in my life. [[05/19/2008]]* I feel like I'm at a total downfall, and I'm not sure why. Can I please just get through my last two weeks of high school, graduate, and live life? Honestly, I don't know what I'm doing with my life right now, I feel so much pressure from everyone around me. I miss people I shouldn't be missing, and I'm probably digging my own grave because of the shit I recently got myself into. I'm done. I'm done being this irresponsible and wreckless girl that I suddenly became overnight. One week being someone else is enough to make me hurl. How did I let myself get so weak as to conform to something I was completely against, only two weeks ago? Damn. Talk about being a hypocrite. I guess we all make mistakes and learn, time to get back to myself. Ignore my previous entry, that girl has left. Goodnight!