I Hate..

Feeling like this, worthless, hopeless. What happened to the me that said I would stay positive through my hardships? Why does life have to throw difficult challenges at me, testing my strength? Why can't everything just be simple?

I vow to be a stronger person. I promise myself not to break down or give in to temptations, the ones I know I will have to face. No more letting other people have any say in what I do with my life. I live how I want, regardless of who I crush to succeed.

I'm not the life of the party. I'm not the fun drunk or the one to light up with. I don't know, whatever you people call it these days. I'm independent. I'm smart. I'm beautiful. I'm strong. I don't need a guy by my side to be worth something. I'm respectable when you know the real me. Listen to the rumors and you're lost.

Sorry if you think I'm boring. Sorry if you think I need to let loose. Sorry if you thing I need to get out more. That isn't my scene and it just isn't me. I don't care if you think I'm too young to be throwing away my adolescence. I have more important stuff to deal with.

I've been causing myself to suffer for over a week, and for what? For someone who doesn't have faith in me? For someone who judges me? For someone that disregards my emotions? It ends tonight.

Peace!